these are a few of my favorite things:

• minty gum
• VW's
• bathing late
• singing to dumb song's
• mid Sunday naps
• no homework
• those crepes that French girl made me
• dances
• my wardrobe
• canyon
• being myself
• birthday's
• when my mom says she's scared of miley cyrus
• warm laundry on a cold day
• bare foot walks in the rain 
• family
• gentleman
• chick flicks
• being single
• pumpkin chocolate chip cookies
• TV series
• writing in my journal
• him

The MOON

I remember the night.

You told me I was the moon.

I was flattered and then you kissed me.

I was still blushing when I ran off.

I ran off because I was scared of love, I was scared it would end.

I ran because my stomach couldn't handle the moon.

P.S. My heart still breaks when I see you.

Dear Heartbreaker,

Cool, I didn't like you anyway.

Wait, Just kidding I do I still do and it kills me inside.

You know when we broke up we never officially ended it. We broke up best friends.

I keep lying to myself every time I see you and her together.

My mind tells me I'm still yours and we've ended it for months now.

I hate her because she loves you and I can tell.

I see you hold her the same way you held me and I can't help but see myself in her.

It makes me wonder if you played me like you're playing her now.

I can tell because I know you; I know you well.

I know your eyes and they tell a story about our past, and it makes me lonely.

Please stop messing with my heart. It hurts.

IDK

I live to die another day.

I live to love the man I know will never love me.

I live to, really I don't know why I'm living besides to maybe, hopefully one day my life will get better.

If I had one wish I would wish to die because I heard heavens a cool place and earth has been trying to reject me since I was born.

The great thing about loneliness is that when I die the only ones to mourn for my lose would be my parents.

The great thing about loneliness is that you have no expectations to fill.

Life's Ambitions (Death)

As I was walking along the Las Vegas strip today I looked around and I thought to myself how do I want to live so that when I die I can look back and be proud of what I did. I looked at the man who was singing with his guitar and he looked so depressed about his life just because maybe he didn't get as famous as what he had in mind but at the same time he was so passionate about his life.

I think that it doesn't matter what I do in this life I just want to live life with no regrets. I want to live knowing that I did all I could do and that I fulfilled my dreams to the best of my abilities.

Were all going to die. I think that is the key to a happy life. I want to live like everyday is my last. I think that I will be more out there I will be kinder to the people  I love. Think about it, if you loved someone and you died and never told them would you regret it?

I would. I think death becomes more real when you live by knowing you might die any day.

picture's are worth a million words

Why are we afraid of what we haven't experienced?

You're not afraid of god you're afraid of religion

You're not afraid of love you're afraid of desperation

You're not afraid of death you're afraid of life

You're not afraid of falling you're afraid of sinking

You're not afraid of being yourself you're afraid of judgment

You're not afraid to rebel you're afraid of consequences

You're not afraid of failing you're afraid of starting over

Fear drives the car into the wall. Fear collides your life and end together.

So I sit here and continue to fear my fears because once one has a fear you can't just fear that fear away it stays in your mind and contains your thoughts. It's not easy to clear your mind believe me I would've already cleaned my slate a billion times if I could.

I don't say this to erase your soul from hope.

But, sinking doesn't always float my boat.

So, do we even know what our fears truly are?

I've never sunk, died, been consumed by a spider etc. Yet we are afraid of those things. How?

Fears shouldn't exist because what if dying is peaceful? What if its actually enjoyable? It might actually be. Finally starting a new chapter of our lives and not just enduring this hell we call earth.

Fears doesn't exist its just our imaginations running wildly into the ground. Running to the song of doubt and pessimisticness.